I needed a way to keep myself sexually satisfied, something beyond garden-variety masturbation, which had grown boring and ineffective for me.

Naturally, I tried pornography, which is good as far as it went. I also did live-porn, pouring money into cam girls, which has its own pleasures. Fun but in the end unsatisfying.

Next, I tried devices. There certainly are no shortage of masturbators on the market. Being of advanced age I had difficulty getting any of these to work for me. The biggest issue was that for these to operate correctly you need to have a firm and sustain erection, a challenge at my age. Many of the appliances were quite interesting though, and I do not regret the money I spent trying them out. Ultimately a no-go.

Frequenting adult toy sites, I was exposed to advertising for sex dolls, which I had always found intriguing although somewhat financially intimidating.